Wednesday, June 30, 2021

Glistening, Growing and Glowing

 Just another broke pencil. 😱


Stay Cool and take care.

Glisten Grow Glow 125

Where do you go to find some best sellers?

Queens Library is the place to be.

Dennis Walcott is a smart, great fella.

The staff is always ready to assist, bringing Excellence.

Magazine, eBooks, concerts and classes galore
What great entertainment!
All for free.

Adults have their quiet space.

For children it’s a very happy place.

Virtual events is the new reality.

A library card is the key to unlock a wealthy treasure.

One Hundred Twenty-Five Years and still growing.
Fun, Fun, Fun

Let’s keep going.
Thanks for expanding our education.
Stronger products of this great nation.

Providing richness for the Queens Community.

Traveling well beyond our borough, crossing oceans and seas.
Happy 125th Anniversary

Glistening, Growing and Glowing
Queens Library

Laura M.

Smell Memories

 Alas, I lost my sense of smell and taste fifteen months ago when I was infected with Covid 19. 

Not once in all this time have I been able to smell toast or roses or rain or anything. I have left the gas on and almost fainted, set the toaster oven on fire and the fire alarm did not go off, overcooked and burned food, had no idea the litter box needed to be cleaned. Boiled liquid down where it scorched the pot. I now triple check my apartment to make sure everything is off.  

I wonder what I smell like or does my cat smell dusty and dirty. Eating out is no longer enjoyable. Deliciously smelly brick cheese has the texture of paper when I chew it so I stopped eating it.  Lentils have the texture of sandy dirt, love lentil soup, another thing I can’t eat. Chili with beans and meat is reminiscent of soap.  

Lacking a sense of smell and taste has not stopped me from eating. I eat differently now, I eat from memory and I pay attention to my body signals like craving caffeine or protein or water. Many times I can crave something and eat it and my brain has a disconnect. My brain expects a certain smell or taste and there is nothing. Disappointing to me and my brain.   

If I do cook for someone I rely on them telling me how the food tastes, not to mention if I have spoiled food in the fridge.  

Living like this is a very strange. Over the next few months I have appointments with specialists again to see if there is anything new I can try. I did try a Neti Pot which did not work. I doubt there is anything new because Covid 19 caused nerve damage to my sense of smell and taste. The brain does repair from this kind of nerve damage by itself but it takes years.  

I am trying a new approach also, I am trying acupuncture next month on the advice of an acquaintance who had Covid and lost her sense of smell and was cured with acupuncture. I hope it works.  

In the meantime I will continue to eat and use my memory to replace my lack of smell and taste.  


Georgia

6.2020

Tuesday, June 29, 2021

The Summertime Scent

 My childhood summertime memories come back to me. The rocking chairs on the Catskill Old House are going back and forth, back and forth. A perfect place for children waiting for lunch on a rainy day. Out of the heat of the communal kitchen comes the aroma of each woman cooking on her own gas range and shared oven. The scent mixes with the rainy summer breeze. Soon it will be lunchtime. Each of the eight families has an oilcloth covered table in this kuchaleyn ( where you cook on your own as compared to a chef cooking at hotels}. Momma has been cooking in her tall white enamel pot. She is cooking the blueberries poppa and I picked the day before. Poppa brought back his tall aluminum pail brimming with the plump ripe berries: I brought back a small brimming sand pail with my pick..  She is  baking the pies with the blueberries poppa and I picked. The scent wafting out of the kitchen on to the porch will remind me of all the delicious treats in store. Momma with her blue stained fingers and blue stained apron is my Blueberry Queen. She will be turning out an array of blueberry jams, blueberry blintzes, blueberry pierogi and blueberry pies. Cold washed blueberries on cold white sour cream will be a frequent lunchtime meal. 


Eighty years later, all these are only memories, but the scent remains whenever I pass the berry counter in the local fruit store.

Ethyl Haber

Sunday, June 27, 2021

Artificial Nothing

     If I walk past a bakery just when various cakes are being removed from its ovens, the scent emanating envelopes me in the memory of my mother, and her marvelous baking ability . 

 

                                  No Artificial Preservatives, No Artificial Anything  

       I grew up in Middle Village, a small neighborhood in central Queens in New York City. The neighborhood was unique in that it consisted of families that were each surrounded by many relatives. For example, we shared a small two family frame house with my mother’s first cousin. My mother’s sister lived two houses away and her brother around the corner. My father’s sister lived in the neighborhood as did other relatives. This concentration of relatives was repeated throughout the neighborhood with other families.

     What I wish to set down for my children and their children for they will never see a Middle Village as I did, is my recollection of a small neighborhood bakery called “ Eichel’s.” It was located in a corner building around the block from I lived. It consisted of a store and a large back work area with tables and several brick ovens. It was during the great depression of the 1930s and money was a scarce commodity. We never bought cake, but we did buy rye bread for six cents a loaf comparable to what today would cost several dollars. On Friday we bought challah, the traditional Sabbath loaf. 

     The store was operated by two sisters and their husbands. One sister was always cross and unsmiling, the other the complete opposite. If you were lucky enough to be waited upon by the pleasant sister, you often found on your way home a free jelly cruller tucked into the bag of bread.

     Middle Village was a mixed harmonious ethnic community of Jews, Italians, Irish, some Germans and a sprinkling of Scandinavians.  The Jewish community was generally orthodox and observant of the Sabbath. Eichel’s was closed on Saturday and that meant that on Friday the oven fires were banked not to be restarted until Saturday night. Catering as we now know it was beyond our means and unheard of, yet there were constant parties, Bar Mitzvahs, Briths,  Pidyanan-Bens and these were self made affairs either in one’s home or the basement of the synagogue. This required a great deal of work, but with the large family clans there was no shortage of unpaid labor. Eichel’s did no baking on Friday afternoon and the ovens while banked, still had considerable heat. The community was permitted without charge, to use the ovens. You could bake whatever you wished, except bread or challah which you were expected to buy from Eichel’s.

     On the Friday before a particular event, the woman of the clan converged on the bakery and spent the entire afternoon baking for the affair. At 3:30 when the children came home from the neighborhood elementary school they went to the bakery to help carry the cakes to the home where the affair was to be held. While I speak from a memory of over 70 years ago, the picture of what awaited you when you entered and the aroma of the cornucopia of freshly baked cakes, is as vivid in my mind as though it was yesterday.

     It was not at all unusual to have several different clans working at the same time for their affairs. You walked into the back of Eichel’s and were met by rows upon rows of large well used flat baking pans filled with strudel covered with powdered sugar, honey, sponge and pound cakes, onion cookies, rugelach, both cheese and nuts and raisins, all sorts of cookies, all still warm. You, your brother, sister and cousins lined up in the corner where your family had been working and each given a pan to carry with the admonition to be careful and not to eat the warm cakes, the latter of course always ignored. You delivered the pan and ran back for another until everything had been brought home.

     To this day, I do not enter a bakery without the urge to walk into the back room hoping to see those wonderful women turning out their handmade miracles. I do not of course and know that even if I did, I would  not see them for they and that era are gone forever.

Ben Haber

Friday, June 25, 2021

Father's Day

 When I was really little my father walked out on us. I was close to him and when he left my mother told me I would cry for days and for many hours asking for my father to return. He did not return nor did my mother do anything to ease my pain, she was glad to get rid of him.  

To comfort my little mind I would pretend he was still home with us. I imagined he told me stories of faraway places and dragons and newly discovered islands with wild natives chopping trees and killing monkeys.  

In my little mind we would go to the library and he would teach me about sail boats and trains and planes, travel and cooking and reading the dictionary to learn new words.  

In my little mind he would tuck me in my cold lonely bed; he would put my teddy bear, kitty cat and kangaroo beside me to keep me warm and safe. In my dreams my father was always there protecting me.  

In my little mind he would brush my hair and we would have tea parties until bedtime. He would watch me ride my bike and roller skate and lovingly listen to my worries and bring Band-Aids for my boo boos.  

My little mind had conjured up the only way of dealing with the grief of losing my father by pretending he was still with me.  

I tell that little girl that she is a genius to have comforted herself in order to keep some sanity and manage her grief. She didn’t do anything to cause her father from leaving and I love her so much.  

As life would have it time goes on and the memories get buried deeply on a cellular level. In everyday life my father rarely came up except on Father’s day and Christmas and Birthday’s and in almost every dream.  

 Georgia
6/2021

Tuesday, June 22, 2021

Fathers

 My sisters and I were thrilled when our dad pulled out of a worn cardboard box a secondhand movie projector from Uncle Johnny, our mom's eldest brother. Dad had no movie camera for home movies, so all we ever watched were the same three single spool film shorts, and always in the same sequence. First there was a western featuring a posse chasing after a gang of robbers, then a Sinbad the Sailor cartoon, and finally a scene from an Abbot and Costello movie with Lou Costello in the wrestling ring. Our home theater was our first floor garden apartment's little dinette and the wall was our screen. There was no sound and each film was in grand and glorious black and white. 

Perhaps twice a year on a Friday or Saturday evening my sisters and I would plead with our dad to show the movies. He was baffled by the joy it brought us, but our joyfulness brought joy to him as well. For some reason, our mom never joined in. It was just us kids and our dad.

In addition to the movies themselves, I got a kick out of watching Dad spool the film through the projector, and when it was over, watching the projector mechanically unwind the film. One time, he let me try my hand at spooling, but I clumsily got mixed up. I had minimal mechanical memory and that is probably why I never joined the audio visual squad at school.

Eventually, the projector broke down and that was the end of our dinette movie theater. Dad kept the cylinder shaped projection lens. For over a decade it had a second life as a makeshift magnifying glass, much like a jeweler's eyepiece. 

My sisters and I look back at this little childhood memory with fondness. More so than the movies, it was the intimacy we shared with each other, and most importantly, with our dad that we will always cherish.

Steve T
June 2021

The News

Plumbing the depths of my soul I seek to take control

Not of those things that abound or surround me.

These waves of terror I have found all around.

They were here before a head was ever crowned

Since my pain brings no gain I must still the refrain

From those who proclaim again and again, in vain, yes, in vain.

It is time to draw near I must harken and hear

The sound of my Friend who foretold of the End

With sweet stately works filled with wisdom and love.

His news he did not holler nor scream of blight, hate and squalor.

Tragically his foes now are many yet, I ponder why should there be any.


Yvonne
June 2021

Sunday, June 20, 2021

The Flood

 


Following the deluge of destruction to the complex at NYU Medical Center during Hurricane Sandy, new protections were developed to combat the devastating effects of future floods.  The natural disaster had almost closed down the hospital. In the coming months the campus which stretched from 30th street to 34th street and 1st Avenue to the FDR Drive would be encircled with emergency generators, boilers and all other services needed to run a major medical center. Submarine doors were installed on entrances facing east with the lowest elevations, as well as layers of temporary protection which could be quickly deployed with a few hours’ notice. This picture shows the carpenters having completed a timed drill installing a temporary flood barrier to protect the main entrance of the emergency room on First Avenue and Thirty third street.

On a rainy, stormy Sunday night the carpenters were on standby to respond to failing windows or help the plumbers bail out an area that would need many hands on deck, or to assist the electricians hauling heavy cables, when the approaching hurricane reached full force. NYU Medical Center was situated next to the FDR drive and a few feet above sea level, a precarious position to be in. An underground stream actually ran underneath the Medical Science building that contained the Carpenters Shop in its basement, and could be seen in the exposed pits in one of the machine rooms. On Sunday night the confluence of a powerful hurricane combined with high tide and a full moon swelled the waters impinging on NY Harbor. N.Y.U. Medical Center stood facing this menace.

The first sign of a problem occurred when one of the carpenters noticed a trickle of water streaming down the corridor of the main hallway. This quickly increased in volume as the alarm was sounded by the carpenters that the exterior walls had been breached. As doors were pounded on to alert everyone to the flood, the stream turned into a river and finally a torrent as the water rapidly began to rise and everyone, now knee deep in water, headed for the stairwells to ascend to the ground floor and safety, leaving valuables behind. Luckily everyone was alerted and no lives were lost to a watery grave. Within a half hour the water had completely submerged the basement and climbed up the stairs almost to the next level.

The weeks, months and years following this incident were an uncomfortable time for the Carpenter Shop as our home had been destroyed and we were continually moved from location to location and were supplied with home-owner grade equipment to perform our work. At the time of my retirement six years later, the crew had still not received their new permanent shop. Seeing this picture again brought these memories rushing back into consciousness of a challenging and eventful time.

 

Jim

June 2021

Letter to Poppa

 Dear Poppa:


     I am asked why I have written many stories about my relationship with Momma, but nothing about you. I explained since Momma lived to the age of 93, my relationship with her extended from infancy, childhood, teenager, young and middle age adult even approaching old age,  I
really got to know her. You passed away at the age of 52 when I was a young teenager. In addition I was born on January 17, 1928 the youngest of your five children. In 1929 you were faced with a terrible economic depression that lasted into the 1930s. There was much unemployment and you were faced with the difficulty of taking care of a wife and five small children. It made sense you were unable to have a relationship with me. When the depression ended at the end of the 1930s and in the early 1940s two of your sons were drafted into the army, you then developed a colonoscopy problem requiring surgery. 

     I was unaware your medical problem would shortly be fatal.There were a couple of things I did that still upset me. I remember visiting you in the Kings County Hospital shortly after your surgery, telling you I got a part time job after school hours, thinking that would please you. I now think that was wrong, because it could be saying you were unable to give me an allowance.I should have known a Yiddish expression “To be poor is not disgraceful”.  I also recall after you were home, not knowing you would shortly pass away I complained I had only one pair of pants and was embarrassed to go anywhere. That was a terrible thing for me to do and I beg for your forgiveness. 

     Momma lived long enough so I and the other children were able to give her some segments of the American Dream, none of which ever able to land in your lap. Frieda was your first born and you did not want her brought up in the terrible lower East Side of Manhattan. Your sister Mary lived in a place called Middle Village in Queens that was still surrounded by farmland and you arranged to move there, where we all grew up and thank you. Frieda with much justification was your favorite child, and we are grateful you were still alive in September 1939 to attend her wedding to Archie and in the early 1940s to know their children Jeffrey and Larry. I recall that with your sewing ability, you made a beautiful blue coat for small Jeffrey.

     You would have been happy with all your in-laws and grand and great grand children. Some day I shall write a story introducing all of them, but in this writing I shall refer to my two children. My son Chaim (Carl) named after you, became and is an important contribution to society. Equally important is my daughter Emily who is the C.E.O. of the Massachusetts Service Alliance, that is a unique resource for local organizations and its citizens working to better their communities. I am sure Carl and Emily are grateful for inheriting some of your DNA.

     If we ever meet again, it will be with a hug and kiss and the beginning of the relationship
we missed. Please forgive me if there be some stains on this writing. They were caused by the release of long held back tears.

Love and miss you.

Moishe a/k/a Ben

January 2021

Saturday, June 19, 2021

Old Family Photographs

 It was such a strange thing that happened. I wasn’t looking for anything really. There it was on the floor out of nowhere. A picture of my daughter’s father with my youngest daughter in the baby carriage, she must have been one year old. 

I had to look twice; I thought I forgot about him because he passed away from 9/11 illness two weeks before his 60th birthday. That was 6 years ago. My daughters were very sad at losing their father.  

I found that picture on his birthday. Maybe he wanted to be remembered, I was not sure.   

Shortly after he passed away, he came to me in a dream. He showed me how he shed the tubes and hospital gowns and the cancer he had while alive, I asked what he was doing in my dream. He told me “Live Your Life”. I think maybe somehow he knows I am a crossroad in my life and I am to remember his advice: “Live Your Life.” 


Georgia P.
June 2021

Sunday, June 13, 2021

A Letter to My Best Friend


 


My dearest Murray,

What is it like over the rainbow bridge? Are you hopping around with other bunny pals? I hope your first mommy is with you. You deserve a reunion like that. I feel so honored to have been your mommy, even for a little while.

I bet there are Timothy lollipops and slices of fresh plum everywhere and you can eat as much of them as you wish. I hope your tummy is stronger than it ever was before you crossed the bridge. You deserve that too.

I hope there are fields of basil, parsley, and green peppers. You loved those too. There must be loads of fresh hay everywhere! I can only imagine how content you are to flop down on your side and nap after every feast. I’m laughing just thinking about it.

I only knew you for a little while. But I loved you the minute you hopped out of that carrier and into my home—your home. Within minutes you were comfortable enough to flop down right in front of us. I knew you were telling us, “You’re my family.”

Every time you begged for a treat, I loved you. Every time you explored the living room, I loved you even more. Every time you did a binky, that cute little sideways kick as you hopped, I loved you more and more.

Whenever I petted you, my stress evaporated. It was like I was on the beach, inhaling the ocean breeze. You were my calm, my escape. Mother’s Day weekend I spent alone with you. Do you remember? We were watching a movie in the living room and I was massaging your head and your sides for nearly ten minutes!

You were so relaxed and blissful, that your eyes began to close. I was so happy that you allowed me this moment of bonding. I couldn’t risk taking one of my hands off of you in order to reach my phone. Enjoying this rare experience meant more to me than recording it.

Murray, I want you to know that I’m not angry anymore. You broke your promise to stay for at least a few years, but I realize now that you had to go. Thinking of you, looking at your pictures, and watching your videos cause me so much pain. But if I don’t do these things, you will disappear and I’ve made room in my heart for you to stay.

This time, you can keep your promise, my sweet little boy. I’ll love you always and forever, my friend. Binky free, Murray. Binky free.

Love,

Mommy

Jessica S.
June 12, 2021

Saturday, June 12, 2021

Flowers are Friends

 Daisies, Begonias, Peonies too

Shielding hurt hearts from everything blue.

 


Lavender, Snapdragons, Cala lilies’ dew 

Refreshing dry spirits more than they knew.

 


Satiny silk, velvety mink, your petals are such

That I am tempted to touch.

 


Sweet summer begins with its buttery wings 

At the close of the day a whippoorwill sings.

 

Yvonne A.

Froggy’s Springtime

  Froggy loves springtime when his pond becomes alive with darting fish and lily pads and forest sounds that make him glad.   Froggy pushes ...