Monday, November 28, 2022

Dreaded Song

 

You sing with such power and strength that it’s deafening Echos of empty loneliness, and fear Sweeping me away, dragging in circles whipping and spinningYou push and I pullI have a direction, a destiny to reachYou have your own plans for todayI’m swaying like the guests leaving a party that extended to the morning hourStruggle for my freedom and you wrap me tighter and tighter in your grips Changing course is my escape Heading to the stairs and into the building SAFETY and FREEDOM prevail 

Laura M.
Nov '22

Wednesday, November 23, 2022

Thanksgiving

 

As I get older Thanksgiving takes on a different meaning. No longer am I cooking a juicy turkey with cranberries for a crowd, no longer making our favorite baked apple pie with ice cream and coffee, no longer is it necessary to set up a kids table with little plates and kid size spoons. No longer are there large crowds to seat at the table, many of those folks are long gone.  

Rather it is my daughter’s role to set the table for the small crowd we have with a smaller turkey and cranberries and coffee. It is she who is now the responsible adult organizing a hearty meal with vegetarian options and organic tea. No children’s table just yet.  

The ghosts of Thanksgiving past can still be felt as she goes through the motions of the next generation. Memories come up with heartwarming stories told in front of a fire with quiet reflection. 

It is my new role to be the elder and help where I can and savor every forthcoming Thanksgiving.  I am reminded at just how grateful and lucky to have loving family, intimate meal with cozy conversations and turkey with cranberries and our favorite apple pie with coffee and another chance to be connected to those that matter 


Georgia

Sunday, November 20, 2022

Thrills and Chills

 

Thrills!President LBJ is coming for Thanksgiving dinnerRecurring nightmares Dreaded dreamscooking chaos Culinary catastrophesChills!

ThrillsPresident LBJ is coming for Thanksgiving dinnerUnthawed turkeyNagging nightmaresDespair! Despair!ChillsDaily dinner disasters in my marriageCulinary catastrophesChillsThrillsFriends coming for Thanksgiving dinnerCooking chaosNagging nightmaresChills!President LBJ is coming for Thanksgiving dinnerForgot to defrost the birdDespair! Despair!Ethyl Haber

Sunday, November 13, 2022

Beatle Boot Mania

 

“Ladies and gentlemen- the Beatles!” That was Ed Sullivan introducing the four lads from Liverpool to American viewers for their first live TV performance. It was February 1964, and I was seven years old. I knew their names and had seen pictures of them but didn’t fully grasp what the fanfare was all about. Except for “I Want to Hold Your Hand” and “She Loves You,” I wasn’t that engaged in the music either. That would eventually change of course. The one thing that did catch my attention though was their mod look- the thick, rounded bowl-shaped mop top hair and matching slender, slim fitting suits. But most of all it was their pointy-toed black Beatle boots with the little elastic band at the ankles and the narrow, elevated heels. I thought they were the coolest footwear going, perfectly complementing their trim slightly shortened cuffless pants.

            At some point my cousin Charlie up in Peekskill started wearing Beatle boots or something similar after he took up drums and joined a garage band. That’s when I decided that I wanted a pair. My mother absolutely refused. “Those pointy toes are bad for a wee boy’s growing feet,” I can imagine her saying with her ever present hint of a Scottish brogue that she retained despite living most of her life in the U.S. It came back to life in the presence of Scottish family members as well as at certain motherly moments. This was one of those moments. Mom wasn’t strict, but she could be overly protective at times. It probably stemmed from a traumatic event in childhood in which an older brother and sister were tragically killed in a sledding accident. Another brother had been physically disabled since childhood after falling from a roof and suffering a leg injury that never properly healed. It might also have been around this time that Mom was briefly influenced by a new neighbor, an Argentinean mother originally from Scotland who really was strict and overly protective of her two sons. Our neighbor’s eloquent Spanish and Scottish accented English as well as her strict parenting style set her apart from the other adults on 19th Street in Marine Terrace. And once my mother’s protective instincts took command, there was no turning back. Firecrackers, playing in the street, and Beatle boots were off limits.

            It didn’t help either that my mother was not a die-hard rock-n-roll fan. She loved Scottish and Irish songs and knew many lyrics. Her all-time favorite was “Danny Boy” which inspired me to name my son Daniel. Mom also enjoyed Tin Pan Alley sing-alongs and strumming the ukulele. In addition, she danced the Lindy, Scottish fling, and a basic soft shoe tap dance. Before marrying my dad, she even “produced” and “directed” backyard shows with my older cousins and their friends singing the novelty songs she had taught them. Mom sure did love music, but rock-n-roll was not her “spot of tea.”

            Anyway, I cooled off on the idea of wearing Beatle boots for a while. Then in fourth grade I noticed a few older boys wearing pointy-toed shoes with the addition of clickety-clacking metal taps. My classmate Joseph wore a pair. Once again, my mother steadfastly refused. She thought Joseph’s shoes were ridiculous. One day one of the heels snapped off as he stepped from a curb on the way home from school, an indication that they were not of the best quality. And so, I continued wearing the same common sense Stride Rite shoes with round roomy toes for school and church, and P.F. Flyers for play, and permanently gave up on Beatle boots. Even the Fab 4 eventually stopped wearing them.

            In the years that followed I exercised better judgement in the footwear department. In sixth grade I tried comfortable lightweight Hush Puppies at my dad’s urging. His bad flat bony feet had always compelled him to choose his shoes wisely and care for them with shoe trees and regular polishing, a practice he instilled in me. The swede Hush Puppies only needed a quick brushing (no polish) now and then. What a relief! In fifth-grade we had weekly inspections in which boys had to shine their shoes, scrub and trim their fingernails, and clean their ears. Learning good hygiene was fine. It’s the inspections that I didn’t like.

            For a brief period during my high school years platform shoes were the thing, but I wanted no part of them. My parents’ good senses had finally taken hold and have remained with me ‘til this day. During my junior year mom became gravely ill. She passed away a few weeks before my high school graduation. It was a rough period for our family.

            Shortly before my honorable discharge from the U.S. Army where proper fitting footwear was a necessity, I purchased a pair of comfortable Earth shoes with spacious rounded toes and low heels meant to mimic standing in sand. They were just what I needed for college. Then, during my second year of teaching I developed a severe itchy callous-forming wart condition on one foot. I had made the mistake of stepping on a wet YMCA locker room floor with an open blister that had just formed after a round of basketball. With his distinctive husky voice my doctor advised me to continue the podiatrist’s treatment and “wear good soft gum soled shoes.” Dr. Drimer wore Clarks Wallabees. Same as my dad a few years earlier and now, my colleague, Joe G. So, I followed in their footsteps and bought a pair of medium brown leather Wallabees, arguably the most comfortable shoes I’ve ever worn- soft and springy, and extra roomy in the wedge-shaped toes. I even went a step further and got two short sleeve Guayabera shirts, another of Dr. Drimer’s fashion statements. Maybe a little old fashioned, but perfect for the classroom during those last few days in June when the temperatures rise. I loved my Wallabees and I loved my Guayaberas. Throughout my teaching years I mostly wore Rockports and Wallabees while setting aside a pair of Florsheims for dressy occasions. I currently rotate between Clarks, Sketchers, Vionics and other sensible shoes.

A few years ago, ankle high men’s shoes resembling Beatle boots, only without the pointy toes, made a modest comeback. I even spotted them in the window of a Clarks store in Manhattan. For a while I halfheartedly debated with myself whether to try on a pair just out of curiosity, ultimately deciding against it. I was just fine with what I had.

Recently, I watched A Hard Day’s Night on TCM. It was the Beatles’ first film at the height of Beatlemania. The foursome looked awkward whenever they ran to escape the throngs of starstruck fans, mostly screaming teenage girls. In one scene George tripped and fell, leaving his bandmates laughing. As I watched I realized their boots were suitable for posing and performing, but not much else. That’s what my mom would have thought, and she would have been right. Whatever the case, I’ll always remember how cool John, Paul, George, and Ringo looked wearing their Beatle boots to complement their matching slim fitting suits in those early days of Beatlemania.

Steve T.


Saturday, November 12, 2022

Olga Jacoby

 

Love, like strength and courage, is a strange thing; the more we give the more we find we have to give. 

Olga Jacoby 

Sara Olga Ilke was born 1874 in Germany. She married John Jacoby a lace manufacturer in London, and they adopted four children. Somewhere between 1909-1913 she was diagnosed with a terminal illness. From here she wrote about living and dying.  

In her book “Words in Pain – Letters on Life and Death” she talks about her love for her children and husband and reflection on how beautiful the world is. She was not afraid of death and looked at the realities of life with a clear head and fierceness. She was an advocate for the right to die and death with dignity. A staunch agnostic and felt justified in taking her own life. As her terminal condition worsened, she chose when she would die. She took her own life on May 6, 1913, by taking a large amount of sleeping pills available at the time.  

The above quote is a reminder that while we live, we have enough love, strength and courage to tap into and apply in our own lives and the lives of others.

Georgia


Portrait

 

As I sat down on the park bench there was an older woman rocking a baby in a carriage across the way. She smiled intently at her charge, completely consumed by the child, and oblivious to her surroundings. She worshipped the child. I speculated that this must have been her grandchild considering the obviously deep emotional ties she had developed with the baby. The carriage was not of a modern design, and certainly not the type that young mothers jogged along with, but rather the large, cumbersome, old-fashioned type used in the 1950’s. It had been well taken care of and was clean and polished to a shine. The woman had long grey hair that was swept up in a bun and you could see the crags and valleys that had eroded her beauty and weathered her face with deep lines like the road map of a difficult arduous journey.

            The old woman reached into the carriage to lift the child, being ever so careful not to startle or disturb it. As the infant was elevated, I noticed a strange lack of effect in the child, with its outstretched arms frozen in space not flailing around as a baby might do. The baby’s cheeks had an unusual pallor or more accurately a strange sheen. Suddenly the baby’s eyes opened with a click. The deep blue glass balls shone brightly in the sun, and it was then that I realized that it was a doll. The old woman did not notice this though. In her mind’s eye she was a new young mother learning to care for her child and obsessing over the details as a first time mother might do. She did not realize that if her baby had lived the child would now be an adult, possibly with children of her own and the woman would be a grandmother. She smiled intently with a deep love for this substitute for the child that did not live. After the wrinkles were removed from the blanket the woman carefully put the doll back into the carriage and tucked the baby in. The woman rose now, pushing the carriage back home as it was time for the baby’s bottle and a nap.

                                                                                                                        Jim Nov 22’


Saturday, November 5, 2022

Halloween Memories

 

When I was little, around 7 or 8 the neighbor kids would gather on my block on Halloween. It was a tradition that went on for about 6 years. We were not allowed to cross the street, so we walked in a crowd together, laughing and glittering in our costumes. Vampires, witches, cowgirls and angels, beatniks and ghouls. I was the cowgirl. We were a splendid lot. Proud, haughty and so young and innocent.  

There must have been thirty children and we would make our way in and out of every six-family house on our four-sided block. The big kids took care of the little kids, and the little kids were delivered to their respective homes when we were done. 

Back then we got lots of pennies. A penny would buy gooey candy and some Hershey’s Kisses and pink bubble gum. With enough pennies we could buy a Coca Cola.  

Even back then there were scares of poison candy and razors in apples. Thankfully we never had a problem.  I was so exhausted after trick or treating that I fell asleep in my costume, smiling. 

Mom would go through the bags for safety, and she would steal some for herself. The bags were kept under the sink next to the pots and pans. We had enough candy for weeks. Remembering those days is so sweet, so happy and I will remember my childhood Halloween always and tell my grandchildren of those days while taking them trick or treating.  

Georgia

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