PART ONE
PART ONE
Rivkah and I were exploring the dimly-lit bookshop—a charming old-fashioned storefront shop where you could see the dust motes through the few rays of sunlight that penetrated the dim interior and marvel at the intricate book bindings that lined the shelves. We each wandered around its dusky recesses. I couldn’t find anything I wanted to buy, but Rivkah looked pleased with four Chinese prints she had unearthed. It was the same look she had on her face when she and I had gone to a Chinese scroll exhibit at the Met and she discovered a book on Chinese calligraphy to give to a friend. We took our place in line, to wait for the Asian cashier to finish with the several customers in front of us. Suddenly Rivkah’s face changed and her lips pursed with concern. She asked me if I’d stand in line for her and pay for the prints. “Of course,” I said, though I was puzzled by her request. Before I could ask why, she turned quickly away, strode to the door, and left the shop with an air of concentration and determination. I wondered if she was late to teach her class at the local college or if she had forgotten about a doctor’s appointment for which she was now late.
They say to make lemonade with the lemons life hands you. Well, I’ve got barrels of lemons and I’m ready to start squeezing. From now on when trouble comes my way, I will remember the color yellow and how many kinds of it there are: Sunshine and daffodils, buttercups and canaries, bananas and custard. Brilliant and bold or pale and pleasing, yellow comes in many shades and shapes.
We need yellow if we want to paint a picture, there will eventually be a time and place for it. That is the way of trouble too. It comes and goes unbidden. Much of the time we heap more on top of the bit that’s there by thinking it could have been avoided if we were wiser, quicker or somewhat better. This only leads to double the trouble.
From now on I will wait it out and remember that
trouble doesn’t arrive by general invitation and will not depart any sooner if
I choose to dwell on it. So too this
present trouble shall pass but it will soon be replaced by another. Recently, we’ve learned what it is to be
malleable albeit involuntarily.
We don’t like the truth of our powerlessness over our circumstances. It is humbling and we may misinterpret that as humiliating. If we look through a lens that’s even only slightly distorted then yellow, who did nothing wrong, becomes the color of cowards and our courage evaporates like smoke.
The best thing about spelling bees is there’s
a right answer and a wrong one. There’s
no in between, no grey area: you either know or you don’t. Me?
I’m blessed with a better than average memory and that is why I’ve
always been good at spelling. I found it
very helpful even when learning other languages.
In the real estate business, it was a big
asset. I remembered what people told me
and the information about themselves, their families and properties. Now that I no longer work outside my home,
memories often pop up and many are from childhood. One leads to the next and I realize how
unusual it is to remember all the names and details because I am often asked
how I can recall things from long ago and far away.
Frankly, I have no idea how or why. In large part, I believe, it may come down to
being observant and interested in people, places and things more than a
personal goal or agenda. It isn’t
inherently the better way but it happens to be mine. Learning about people fascinated me from a
very young age and I continue to be amazed by my fellows.
Yes, I can spell well and love to use my dictionaries because I respect
words and language.
When you have a photographic memory ,you
spend a lot of time flipping through the past like an album in your brain. There are images you are glad to keep with
you always and some you would give anything to forget but I’ve found it is
important to embrace all of them: good, not-so-good, mixed and
regrettable. We all have an Achille’s
heel. Nobody should forget that.
The day I came to recognize mine was the
turning point. In that moment, I
realized that something changed: It was my direction. Instead of being an actor, I became the
director and my first directive was “Cut.”
One by one, over time, new roads and paths opened up before me and I
walked away from the rut seeking to devour me.
Looking back, I skipped over the “lost years” to remember the child I
once was - filled with such wonder and perfect light. It is my good fortune to still have at my
disposal many photographs and keepsakes to assist me as I recall the moments
leading up to the present one.
Many questions may remain unanswered and life
will continue to be mysterious, as are all miracles, but now I regard this as
my destiny. Sometimes as I wash dishes,
shower or perform a similar task a slide pops into my invisible viewfinder and
I see a scene from long ago and it puzzles me as I stretch out to grab it by
the hands of time and apprehend the delicious flavor, sweet aroma even the
sting of pain that is now just a faint mist.
In moment’s like these I lift up my head and my hands in thanks!
Instructors Note:
This is an exercise in adaptation of a sort, an experiment to see if it is true, as I believe, that all good stories are infinitely malleable, that their beginnings can lead us down different rabbit holes because we as writers have the creative capacity to extend their trajectories. So ... take either the beginning of ALICE, or the opening paragraph of any story or novel that you like and follow it up with a completely original second paragraph of your own.
Once upon a time there were three little kittens and their names were Mittens, Tom Kitten, and Moppet.
They had dear little fur coats of their own, and they tumbled about the doorstep and played in the dust.
But one day their mother Mrs. Tabitha Twitchit was having a friend over so the kittens had to get cleaned up.
“Kittens” she shouted,” take a bath, and wash your fur and put on clean clothes because my friend is coming over today”.
“OK Mom, we will,” so the kittens jumped in the bath and put so many bubbles they couldn’t find each other. They laughed and slid out of the tub and shook to dry off.
The Kittens then rifled through their dresser for clean clothes. The Kittens are really good at getting dressed. Blue shirts, green pants, yellow vest, orange jacket, purple shoes, they looked the same and looked so pretty.
The Kittens came to the kitchen to show Mom how clean and pretty they were.
Mom said” I am so proud of the three of you, you took a bath and smell fresh and clean, such good listeners, and you dressed yourself so beautifully”. “Now go into the living room and play nicely while I finish up here in the kitchen”.
Mittens, Tom Kitten and Moppet decided to play Monopoly; quietly they played, next to the warm fire, feeling safe and warm.
Mrs. Duck was walking up the road; suddenly they heard a big crash and boom. The three kittens ran outside and there was Mrs. Duck upside down on the road, her basket tossed to the side and big paddle yellow webbed feet high in the air.
Mittens and Moppet helped Mrs. Duck stand up and Tom Kitten grabbed the basket. Mrs. Duck said,” Oh what good Kittens you are, I slipped on the road and fell, thank you for helping me”.
By now Mom heard the commotion and ran outside to see what happened and was so proud of her good kittens for their kindness and help.
Mrs. Duck and the Kittens and Mom sat down to lunch and the treats in Mrs. Duck’s basket. They talked and laughed and told jokes and played Monopoly.
Mr. Duck picked up Mrs. Duck in his red pickup to make sure she didn’t fall down again.
“Good night Mrs. Duck, see you again soon”, waved Mom. The kittens waved bye too. Mom gave her wonderful Kitten's saucers of milk just before bed, kissed them and told them, “You were wonderful today, I love you, sweet dreams and I’ll see you tomorrow”.
Mittens, Moppet and Tom Kitten yawned, snuggled in their beds and fell quietly into dream land.
Instructors Note:
This is an exercise in adaptation of a sort, an experiment to see if it is true, as I believe, that all good stories are infinitely malleable, that their beginnings can lead us down different rabbit holes because we as writers have the creative capacity to extend their trajectories. So ... take either the beginning of ALICE, or the opening paragraph of any story or novel that you like and follow it up with a completely original second paragraph of your own.
She
hurried across the field after it, and was just in time to see it pop down a
large rabbit-hole under the hedge. In a moment down went Alice after it, never
once considering how in the world she was to get out again.
Moments later she was falling down a tunnel with no bottom in sight. Roots and rocks littered the perimeter of the tunnel protruding from where the dirt had been hurriedly excavated. Alice occasionally bumped against the sides of the rabbit hole covering her dress in the dark brown earth that became dislodged, resulting in her falling head over heels as she tumbled down into the endless abyss. Time stood still while she plummeted headlong downwards. She noticed that the walls had become a smooth metallic finish not quite man-made but certainly not the work of burrowing rabbits, no matter how industrious they might be. Suddenly Alice was enveloped in a mattress of sorts, absorbing the impact of her fall. Alice looked up to see a pin hole of light seemingly miles above the floor of the cave, which was her initial entry point.
Across the floor of the lobby a creature was stepping out of a rabbit costume. A curious looking being, covered in fur with huge eyes and unusually long digits with what appeared to be suction cups on the end of each tip. “I’m late again, this will not go well, how am I ever to become considered a valuable member of the pod?” said the being. A series of hooks each holding a rabbit suit hung from the metallic steel wall. On one of the remaining empty hooks the alien hung his suit, the inanimate red eyes and long ears of the costume slumping towards the floor. Alice rolled off the side of the cushion, hiding herself from the harried self-absorbed creature. A wide fluorescent tube circled the ceiling of the room which bathed the room in a luminous pink light. The creature ran to a panel covered in alien symbols, and after a penetrating laser retinal scan he disappeared into thin air. "Curiouser and Curiouser Indeed!” exclaimed Alice. “This is certainly not what I expected from that silly rabbit!”
I was
exhausted from crying. I couldn’t believe I had been sitting on my recliner for
over an hour now trying to pull myself together and nothing seemed to work. I
was sure that one of the problems was that I was completely alone. I really
needed someone to keep me company. That was not going to happen!
Well, I
thought to myself, I’m just going to have to continue feeling miserable for as
long as it takes. I resigned myself to this fact and just continued to sit in
the chair. After another long while, I tried to meditate. I felt myself feeling
sleepy and before I knew it, I had fallen into a deep sleep. I started dreaming
and this is how the dream unfolded.
I was
standing in the middle of a courtyard. It was very cloudy. I could see several
over sized houses surrounding the courtyard. One of these very big houses had soft,
glowing candles in the windows and the front door was open and had the most exquisite
stained glass decorating it. I felt as
if the house was inviting me to enter so I did just that. The main floor was
beautifully designed but, for some reason, I was drawn to the center hallway
and the expansive steps that led upstairs.
When I
reached the upstairs landing, I could see a beautiful tapestry rug on the floor
needle pointed with the words Ways to Console Yourself. On each
bedroom door were words such as Nature, Spend Time With Friends, Spend time
with Son, Watch a Funny TV Show, Go to Church, Read, Take a Long Walk, Go
Shopping, Cook Your Favorite Foods, Go to the Beach and Lose Yourself in Your
Job.
I was amazed
because these were all of the things that I used to console myself when I felt
bad. I was so stuck in my own misery earlier that I completely forgot all about
the things that console me and make me feel much better.
My dream
ended abruptly and I sat straight up in the recliner, feeling wide awake. I
immediately started writing down all the things from my dream that made me feel
consoled so I wouldn’t forget them. I then promised myself that I would make an
effort to get my list of consolations when I was sad, disappointed or upset and
choose one of them to help make me feel better.
How
unfortunate it was that my dream ended before I got the chance to pick a door
and enter a bedroom.
Ellen G.
Feb. 2021
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